Blame it on the rain

I think the rain just enhances my, and I'll use a borrowed term here... "quarter life crisis."
I don't like the idea that Julia and I are stuck inside today because it just keeps on raining.
Luckily she's napping right now so I have the opportunity to vent.
I am recently inspired to write. I don't know if it has to do with my current state of being poor, creative and it's near Christmas... but who gives a shit? I'm going to write.

I'm not going to discuss this any further. I don't want obligations to anyone but the paper. Plus if I had my idea stolen, I might flip a flop.

I think the "quarter life crisis" nails it right on the head.
I don't know which way to go in life. It's overwhelming. I feel slightly useless to the world. I'm crazy in debt, but want to buy a sweet car (or move somewhere ridiculously expensive and live life in the fast lane), I also just want all of my dreams to come true now.

Patience, Alexis, patience.

It's what I'm constantly telling myself.
It is extremely frustrating to want to prove yourself to the world and yet the world is saying "not now little girl... not now."

I am lucky.
I have the support of my family to let me fly the coup, but also they have my back when my wings break off and I crash and burn to the ground.
I also have a job where they take care of me like a surrogate family.
I also have a sweet living condition, and although I would give anything to be a troll on my own, having Jeff and FF there is way healthier.

I am in debt, and there's no way out of it... thanks college.
I have a BA in Communications, but no one wants me.

I'm thinking Hemmingway...

I'm not going to shoot myself... don't worry... I was thinking more along the lines of writing about my experiences. Then making others read it.
I mean if you don't suffer a bit, or don't go through low periods... life would be so bland and happiness wouldn't mean shit right?

I over use the word shit.

Julia is awake now... I'm going to go make this all into a positive!
:)